HUNGRY GHOST

There is a quote from the film "We Were Here" about the AIDS epidemic in San Francisco.  One of the people in the film states that many who survived the ravages of those early years but witnessed the death of most of the people they loved and knew became "Hungry Ghosts"; their still here, still walking the earth but have been unable to form any sort of intimate, personal relationship after going thru all of that loss.  That phrase has stuck in my mind and I'm afraid it apply's to me.  I've been alone for a long time now but because I didn't feel lonely I assumed everything was more or less fine.  I now realize that all these years later, all these years since I lost everyone I cared about, I'm still numb from grief and if somhow, someone or something doesn't come along I'll be like this forever.  There must be others like me out there who have experienced what I did and who are still trying to make their way back to the land of the living or who know how to accomplish this feat.  Anyone with any helpful thoughts?